Official Weigh In 23/03

GOOOD MORNIN!

OK, let's cut to the chase here then go through the drama of the week, sound good? of course it does.
(drum roll please)

Weight Loss: 2.1 Kg/ 4.63 lbs
Current Weight: 100.7 kg/222 lbs

Oh yeah... unhuhhh... that's right... I'm a rockstar...

Calorie Counter says:
Calories out: 2436
Calories in: 1053

Gotta be careful here... good week but there were 2 days I actually hit below my minimum of 1000 calories which will set my body into starvation mode and I won't burn at all! EEKKKSSS ...SO... I'll be a bit more aware next week not to under eat so I don't negate all my hard work in the gym.

Well it's truly been a hard week for me so I'm really grateful for the good weight loss. Monday was just a terrible day for me.

I'm still jobless (which , mind you, is quite helpful when your at the gym 3-4 hours a day), I've applied for close to 13 jobs this week alone. Though logic keeps reminding me 'it takes weeks for them to process applications' 'it's not you personally, they don't know you, they are just looking for a specific trait you don't posess' and 'remember, if it's not meant to be yours then you wont get it' ... it's still difficult to feel that rejection by the lack of response to your applications. I have never in my life had difficulty finding or keeping a job and since I've been in Australia (3 years) I've only had trouble. This has lead to a severe lack of self confidence and in conjunction... weight gain. SOOOO Monday was just a terrible weak day for me, intermittently crying - in the store, in the car, at art class- just randomly... my old therapist used to say 'what's your mantra when your feeling that way' Well folks... my mantra was 'nobody wants me, they think I'm not worthy of their job, I'm useless' and that kind of mantra would make anyone cry.

So I did what I have been doing best for the last 3 years , EAT. I'm not proud of it, just being honest so ya'll know the truth here. My emotional food? potato gems (tater tots), shredded chicken, and brown gravy. Not ridiculous at 550 calories BUT HORRENDOUS at 74 g of fat and 2000mg of sodium ! The one really good thing about that? After the 5th bite, My stomach hurt. Oh and it continued to hurt for the rest of the day .... proper punishment? NOOOO there's more.... I wasn't aware you could get constipated so swiftly but guess what!? YOU CAN!! So what did I gain from binging on junk food?? a stomach ache and constipation for 3 days. WOOHOOO ! bet your jealous now. Alright , lesson learned. Now let's see if I remember the lesson next time.

Anyway, picked myself up, wiped my face, dusted my ass, got back on the saddle and kicked some ass from Tuesday on. Went to 2 extra yoga classes for the positive meditation and pulled in a good week after all.

I have a first interview with a local eye wear company on Saturday morning and maybe this is the job that the universe wants me to have.If not, I will trudge on knowing that what's supposed to be will be and try not to over think it.

Love you!
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